Mix.

And he told me all the crazies are going to Washington, D.C. and he said he could see me there.

Ya, it made me want to go more.

Death of Union & Industry

When will the federal government bail out the newspaper business?
The Global Fishing Industry? The Southern Basket Weaving Association and every Failed Academic Institution in this World?
They are Armageddon Pussies lying and groping for Public Fear Funds.
/Fuck them.

Old Age

Maybe we do not get wiser as we get older.

Today was the first snowfall this Winter.

still defiant on the inside

I am happy this week to be a little less bitter about my job.
I think I was depressed because there is nowhere else to go-
I get upset that I worry about being fired or laid off, half of me wishes for it (well, being laid off). But that is so irresponsible and juvenile.
I do not have the confidence in myself to feel I could jump to another working environment right now.
Even the places, times and things here that make me uncomfortable, anxious or angry are better than they would be at a new place. Through time and necessity I have worked to get this job tolerable.
The things that bother me were a lot more unbearable than now. Starting somewhere new is really impossible for me, right now. That brings me to another thing that makes me sad-- I wish I had dreams strong enough and passion hot enough to WANT to leave this job for my own self respect.
The reality is I will be poor and probably feel just as empty somewhere else.
I wish I could stay up in the clouds, float through an entire life within an altered state. An effortless altered state, that I do not have to work at and no one would dare breach.

Vegetarian Pride

For those of you that are vegans you all rule.
However, I eat what I like and I love animals and I am just selfish and don't really do it for political reasons besides meat is gross to me. Maybe one day I won't eat cheese but I don't think it will happen any time soon.
I do what I like. Sure, it is healthier to be vegan. I believe most American food, especially fast food, is processed and handled poorly. I eat a lot of pizza, though.

well this is me

Hi.

Blogaholic- well, that's me.
I want my world to be organized. I have not really been writing a lot of poetry lately.

I am trying to taper in how much of my personal info and actual "person" gets presented out on facebook and other sites. I guess prospective employers and grad school admissions have nothing better to do than scan facebook like a hawk in the hopes of finding something discouraging.

I do not really care but the way my luck has been going coupled with how much I "love" my current job maybe I should start being careful. This is going to be a long Friday. I can not believe I am complaining about one day but I have been complaining a lot today. I think it is the cold weather and the persistent feeling of loneliness and minimal challenge in my every day life.

Some days I just want to be a kid again and be mistified by "Compuserve" and "Prodigy.: There was so much potential during those years...